Just don't

That's all I asked for
Don't say it for I know you don't mean it
Don't tell me you love me
for I know you do not

I believe this because
to my face you say I'm your best friend
to my back you say I'm a wound
that keeps growing and bleeding
I've made you what you are
the bad way

my heart tells me forget that person
my mind says you can't
they're too important to me
to just throw away

I don't want to miss you
or love you
or hold you
ever again
I was betrayed by those words
hurt even
because you contridicted yourself
so I don't know
whether or not to believe the words
you tell me to my face
so I don't know
if I do miss you, or want to hold you
at all

so just don't say you love me
just don't
don't tell me you care
because
I know you only care for those
you don't have to use as stepping stones in life
and I just happened to be
the one under your foot just a year ago

I smile through the saddness though
not for happiness
but for hope
for even though this caccoon just wanted to be a butterfly
I can't
but I can feed the hungry birds
be useful once more
so don't tell me you love me
just don't
for I know you'll be beak in
picking at my heart once more

after all
messengers of the dead
should eat what mortals
hold most dear

just don't tell me you love me
because food only lasts so long